Well, here I am in my hotel room in San Diego. Left Kansas for good last afternoon, with mixed feelings. Definitely looking forward to the new life and new job. So, here's my life beginning again on the water's edge, where it began at the outset. San Diego with its beaches, hills and greenery reminds me so much of Vizag. Looking forward...!
What scares me, though, is the whole scale of it all. I am being awarded a hotel stay in a $400 a night place for 5-weeks. I get a convertible to drive around for a month, and all my expenses paid for. My car and all my furniture is being shipped here for me halfway across the country. Why the royal treatment? Are they expecting some Einstein? Further, can I live upto it??? I am just the geeky-looking kid with the million-dollar gab, methinks. I only hope that I am not being thrust into a current I cannot swim in. I don't want to be flotsam, would rather sink fighting.
I realize the meaning of the word "humbled", used by some people on podiums making grand acceptance speeches. It is the feeling of self-doubt when you realize (nay, just think) that you may not be worth your billing. How am I to learn the core concepts of emerging technology and contribute effectively in a short span of time? Well, lets find out, I guess...
4 comments:
I like that phrase..."that you may not be worth your billing"...very nice. And I, for one, can never believe that my life is actually my life when anything good happens. I'd rather be humble than that other awful way, wouldn't you?
Thanks!
I know the feeling.
Kinda feels like a novel, huh? ;-)
That other awful way will take you farther, but humility will take you higher, if you catch my drift ;-)
Sorry for the multiple posts, I write and then think.
soon it will be the podium one day - keep ur speech ready ;-)
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